Thursday, March 6, 2014

What we've been up to.....

Winter has been long 'round these parts,
but we have made the most of pretty days 
and even some cold ones.

We have gone to Dairy Queen.
Yes in the winter.
Yes we are ready for spring.
Somehow ice cream makes us feel like spring
is going to come.


Oh Sir Cuteness,
you are so funny.


You and Dr. Pepper.
Love.


We had a very windy,
blue skied day,
that we COMPLETELY 
took advantage of.




The skies were blue.
The grass was brown.
We had SO much fun!!


You LOVED this cone.


I LOVE this boy.
Oh this boy!!!


We ran back home and grabbed
another kite.
SO much fun!!!


Remembering to love.
Really love.


Watching this babe play the iPad.


Baby girl and her mama.....


My personal stylist has been back at work.


Loving my cowl.....
(thank you RJ)
If its going to be cold,
its going to be stylish.


Making forever memories.....
You can't see PaPa, but he is on the other
side of the phone being awesome!!
We love him so!!!


Sir Cuteness wanted to remember this
moment of us eating Smarties.
He called it a forever memory.
I love him!
Have I said that?


And a selfie at the gym.
Your welcome.


So that's what we've been up to.
What you been up to?

Have a Beautiful day ~~ 


Tuesday, February 25, 2014

My Heart's Cry..... The Story of a Mother and her Son

There are posts sometimes that you don't want to hit "Publish"on,
but you feel such an urging from the Lord that you cannot write
another thing until you hit that button. 
This is one of those posts for me.  
I want to.
It is hard,
I wish to be brave.
So here I go.

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What is your heart's cry?
Your deep down heart's cry?

I started this year out KNOWING I wanted more of God.
KNOWING that status quo would no longer cut it.
KNOWING that I was made for more than the fear that kept me bound
to the mediocrity of life.

So I started asking the Father to help me.
To renew the fire and passion in me for more of Him.
The desire to pursue Him.
I asked Him to change me.
He set about His business.

You see for quite some time, 
almost five years now, I've lived with a sense of fear
in a particular area.  An area that I absolutely KNEW
that God would use one day, and yet I was paralyzed by fear,
wondering how that could ever be.
How could He use something that so nearly destroyed me?
Something I didn't even want to talk about?
Something that tested my faith to such a degree?

You see, we often talk about the valley.  How bad it is.
How much it hurts.   How our faith is tested there.  How we want out of it.
And while I believe all that to be true, in my valley experience I found myself
in the pit.  A place where the valley was never meant to lead, but so often does.
God doesn't intend for us to be in the pit, the valley yes at times, 
but never the pit.  The pit comes from a lack of faith, not the presence 
of faith.  My faith had been tested, and for a very long time I failed
the test.  But oh the lessons, the invaluable lessons i have learned
meandering around this pit.  I'm so glad that the Father has lifted me out 
of it, and set my feet FIRMLY on the Rock of Jesus Christ.  
He is my Rock and my FIRM foundation.  I can trust in Him,
and so can you.

You see five years ago this March, my Dak started his prodigal wanderings.
Wanderings that have taken us all on quite a journey.  
You see I love him, always have.  My heart hurts for my prodigal.
I know God will bring Him back, He will restore, He will save.
I want it to be today.  Yesterday really.  March 2009 if I'm being really honest.
But I trust.  

I was once a Prodigal.  I came home, and God
stopped at nothing to show His love for me.  He still continues His 
relentless love to me on a daily basis.  I am so thankful.

I wish that I could say I have handled all this like a brilliant,
Godly mother, but sadly I cannot.  I have failed in so many ways, 
that words fail me to convey the depth of my failures, but it has been in
this failure that I have learned some of my biggest life lessons.  
One of the biggest lessons I have learned is what it truly means to love unconditionally.
Deep down, in the depths of who I am, I love this child.  No matter what he does.
My love for him remains.  

So when I ask myself the question what is my heart's cry?
This is my answer:


Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger 
In the presence of my Savior.



Thank you for loving us.

Have a Beautiful Day ~~ 




Monday, February 17, 2014

And Then I Tried.....

Tomahawk throwing.
No need to adjust your screen.
That is right.
I, dawn, a.k.a. city girl.  girly girl.
Went Tomahawk throwing.
It was SO MUCH FUN!!!

Here let me show you.....

video

As great as this throw was there were many more miscues,
but when I got the hang of it,
I started understanding the throw.

My Mr. Winslow made the tomahawk I am throwing.
He is SO talented.
He is making me my own.
I am SO EXCITED!!

We are going to take them with us
this summer for all our camping trips.
I.can't.wait.

video

I'm feeling it =)


video

On the fast track to being a professional
tomahawk thrower (I wish!).
But it's a start =)

Yep, it was a FUN weekend with my man.
I can't wait to do this again!!

Have a Super Day ~~ 

Wednesday, February 5, 2014

Guest Blogging.....

Good morning dear friends,
A few weeks ago I got an email from my dear friend Deidre, asking me if I would pray about being a guest blogger on her blog for a series of posts she was doing in February.  She asked me if I would share my testimony and what God has taught me about receiving His love for me.

I did pray about it, and knew almost immediately that God would have me do this.  The only question was which part of my testimony would God have me share?  You see, I have walked quite a broken road in my life.  There are many aspects of my life that have been hard and things I couldn't have changed, but at the same time, there are many aspects that have been hard that I could have changed had I chosen a better way, but at the time I didn't.  There is a testimony certainly in that as well and all the lessons God as taught me along the way.

So I prayed and sought God and my answer came about an hour after reading Deidre's email.  God wasn't playing.  I asked Him to show me clearly, and through a divine appointment, He did.  

After I wrote this post on a quiet Saturday morning, I read it to my Mr. Winslow.  We sobbed over the sadness and rejoiced in the goodness of our LORD.  Yes, all these years later, we still weep over this time.  

As I think about my testimony I am struck by the glorious redemption God has brought to the broken places.  He has truly given me beauty for ashes.

So if you would like to read the story of this broken part of my road, please go here.
But do please note that my prayer is that you, dear one, see Jesus ALL over it!!  You see, this story really isn't about me, its ALL about Him.  He is good, and He does good.  ALWAYS.

Thank you for loving me.
Thank you for reading.

dawn

Tuesday, February 4, 2014

God Speaks to Me in October.....

.....now don't get me wrong, God speaks to me many more times than in October.
But there is something about October between God and I.
For some reason He speaks about a specific thing in October.
It has been this way for some time now.
I have come to expect it.
I am so thankful He does this.

So what, you might ask, is He speaking to me about in October?
The coming year.
Always, the coming year.

I usually get my word for the year.
A thought for the year.
Something.
And this year, I knew God was telling me that 2014 would be a year of growth for me.

I was on a design team, He moved in my heart to step down when my term was up,
even though I'd been asked to stay on.
I stepped down.  Gladly really.  I'd thought it would be harder.
It wasn't.
It brought relief.
Hmmm.....
Yes, God was up to something.

Then He started just guiding my heart toward other changes.
Heart changes.
Wrong attitudes.  (That one was WAY harder than stepping down from the design team.)
Wrong motives.  (That one stung a little.  The light shone in dark places often hurts).
Wrong desires.  (Mostly in the area of my health, and this one has taken a little bit for me to be obedient on. Just keeping it real.)  I like brownies.  moving on.....
Just to name a few.

So why growth?
Well I had let things creep in.
Nothing terrible.
Nothing awful.
Just things.
Ya know....
the little foxes.

Song of Solomon 2:15
"Catch for us the foxes, the little foxes that ruin the vineyards, our vineyards that are in bloom."

God has been talking to me A LOT about the little foxes.  When I'm doing something that threatens my time alone with Him, He will whisper in my Spirit, "the little foxes".  When He prompts me to write an e-mail to someone He's laid on my heart, or send a text, or stop and pray for them, and I think, "I'll do it in just a minute."  I hear that little whisper, that still small voice whisper in my Spirit, "the little foxes."  I've learned to pay attention.  Those "little foxes" are sneaky.  They don't just come at you shouting,
"HEY GIRL, I'M HERE TO STEAL YOUR VINEYARD.  GONNA CHEW IT TO BITS."  
Nope they're subtle.  Sneaky.

What do my little foxes look like?
Busyness
Rush
Lack of Focus
Complacency

I've been praying that God will help me.  I know when I get in a hurry or to busy that my times with the LORD and the people I love so much will suffer.  Why?  Because I am not giving my full attention to Him and them.  Half-hearted devotion is no devotion at all.  (Just saying')  And that is what God has really been helping me to see.

Be FULL ON.
ALL IN.
NO EXCUSES.

And what happens when I make NO excuses?  When I focus?  When I'm all in?
Growth.

Yes, it is hard.
Yes, there have been tears.
There will be more.
But Jesus is worth every single solitary tear I cry to get closer to Him.
He is worth every single thing I give up to be in His Presence.
He is worth it.

So today, do you need to refocus?  Do you need to understand why things are going the way they are?  Do you need to slow down?  Let me encourage you to take a few minutes with the LORD in His Word.  Let Him speak.  Listen.  Breathe.  Inhale the Word.  Let His Spirit guide you.

I am walking through February with my dear blog friend Deidre.  Please go over to her blog and read her daily posts.  What God has done in her life and is doing through her blog is truly amazing.  Our Pastor says another way to grow closer to God is to see what God's doing and be a part of it.  You can go to her blog and be a part of what God is doing.  You will be amazed.

I love you.
Truly.

dawn