Monday, October 13, 2008

Let it Fade . . .

As I type, "Let it Fade" is the song that is playing and that is fitting for my mood. I need this flesh to fade. I'm having a moment, a struggle, a fight if you will, with myself this morning, and trying desperately to win. I woke just wanting to drown my pain and blahness in food. Now I know that this is not the right way to handle things and given the fact that it is definitely a problem for me, I DIDN'T ~~ OH NO I DIDN'T!!! And yes I wanted to BAD!! But God is faithful ~~ OH YES HE IS!!!!!

I'm thankful that He led me to post last week about my lifelong issues with food and weight, although not to glorify it in anyway, but to cause me to be accountable to you, my friends in this community. Odd as it may seem, I have a real connection to some of you out there and it helps to know that in some weird way I would be letting you down. (Yeah I know, no I wouldn't, and all that, but still. . . I feel like I would)!!

So I made my herbal tea and had my quiet time and IT hit!! The urge monster. I so wanted to eat, pig out, you know the one. The one that says I should I'm not hurting anyone . . . it'll be okay . . . oh boo, go away urge monster . . . See the flesh needs to fade!!!

Well, I resisted and went about my very busy morning with the most amazing teen on the planet and focused on the good and tried to squash the urge. Well, when he got to school and I got home, I fixed my yummy, good for me breakfast: Oat Bran with blueberries (I froze over the summer), a little honey, and a piece of toast from the Breadsmith and drank my water, and you know what? I'm glad I did. I feel somewhat back on track.

In my Bible Study this morning this is some of the reading we were to do:

Romans 12:9-10 "Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil; cling to what is good. 10 Be devoted to one another in brotherly love. Honor one another above yourselves."

So this is my cure for the urge monster today. A hefty dose of love, and make it sincere, with a side of clinging to what is good. I'll have devotion with brotherly love with that and for dessert? Oh yes, (and this is worth the price of admission :-) I'll honor others above myself.

This is a wonderful cure for what ails ya. If you can't see beyond your circumstances today, look to the Lord. Jesus loves you so much dear one. And He wants to do good for you today. I'm so thankful this was our reading for today; God knew right where I would be.

Another great way to get rid of the urge monster is to start thinking about the blessings the Lord has so richly bestowed. For me it is these guys.

Yes Oh YES we had Sky this weekend. STOP IT!! I know too cute this kid. And the teen ~~ Oh yes WAY TOO CUTE!!

And the hubs ~~ get-out-of-town with cuteness ~~ I am surrounded with cuties. I am a well-blessed woman.

Look at this face ~~ don't you just want to smooch up on him?

Sweet baby doll ~~ you are precious ~~ OH YES YOU ARE!!

Have a GREAT day,



  1. So proud of you for fighting the urges! They are sooooo hard! It is awesome that you have an accountable way to hold yourself to it through the blog world!!! We can all support each other!

    And that baby face.....oh my gosh! A little angel right there!

  2. Dawn, you're such a blessing. I hope you realize how much your sharing is an inspiration to others.

    God bless you!

  3. That Skylar is such a cutie!! You are a blessing to all you come into contact with. Hope you have a victorious day in the Lord!

  4. Need this post. I am in need of a big dose of control in fighting the urge!!! Thanks for your prayers.

  5. Thank you for all of your encouragement, Dawn! I am always uplifted after reading your posts and your emails. I needed this today. Thanks for allowing the Lord to use you to serve us ALL up a hefty dose of love!

    Love you, friend,

  6. Way to go Dawn for beating those urges!!! It's is just as written in the new testament....why is it when I am determined not to do something I do it! Frustrting, I know. But you my friend beat it!! Way to be disciplined. Keep up the good work and remember the prize you are shooting for!! I want you better!!

    That baby is so cute!! He looks like he needs a few more squeezes thought!! :)