Learning to Lean....Transparent again....

There are very many days that this could be the title of my post for that day. In fact, it has been the title before, here ~~ and many days when I sit before my computer to write that is the title I think about, but since I have already posted by that title I move on. But not so today. And there may be many more titled this in the future, because I decided today that it is just where I am most days. Needing to lean, learning to lean, and leaning on Him who can give me peace and hope. It is in Christ I lay my head and my heart. So today, again I learn to lean.

What has me needing to lean today? Well I am reading "The Hiding Place" by Corrie ten Boom. I received it for my birthday (back in August, ahem) and am just now reading it. I know. Procrastinator.

In it today I read this, "I know that the experiences of our lives when we let God use them, become the mysterious and perfect preparation for the work He will give us to do."

I really started thinking about this quote and wondering if I really view it this way, and so this quote has prompted me to lean in closer, to listen more intently to my Father, and it beckons the question: Do I let God use the experiences in my life to prepare me for the work He will give me to do, or do I wallow around in them awhile first? Do I look at the experiences in my life, both good and bad, as gifts or hindrances, as blessings or not so much?

I would like to always say that I look at them as gifts and blessings all the time, but that just isn't so. I found myself saying the other day to a dear friend (the one who gave me the book) that I just wasn't seeing a particular trial as a blessing right now, and as those words came out of my mouth I felt bad. I have never said that before. It just seems like I've always been able to see the blessing in the thorn, but this time it just felt different to me. But as I'm leaning and as God is speaking I'm seeing many Blessings that are being unveiled to me through this storm. Blessings of peace and hope in the midst of turmoil and waves; joy in the midst of pain, and love in the midst of sorrow. He is giving me understanding beyond what I could ever have on my own. These are precious gifts; beautiful Blessings among this thorn, and I am so thankful.

There is a song that I heard on Sunday and has been in my heart since. I found a youtube video today of a human video done to this song. If you have visited my blog very much you know I am a huge fan of human video's. The song is "Orphan of God" by Avalon. Let it be a reminder to you today that God has not abandoned you; He knows right where you are child. He loves you so. Take a moment and drink this video in. Beautiful. Lean into Him as you watch and know that you are so dearly loved by Him.







PS Update: Dak was really hoping to be able to go to school tomorrow, because he has a field trip, but he woke up this morning with a low-grade fever. He is sad. I feel really bad for him. But he has to be fever free for 24 hours before he can go back to school. bummer. He probably isn't feeling as good today, and he definitely wants to be feeling better so he can run on Saturday at Districts. So we continue to push fluids and encourage him to move around a little more, so he can start getting his body feeling better. GO DAK GO!! WE LOVE YOU!!!