Monday, September 20, 2010

"Let us run with perseverance....."

Well, I went to the doc Friday, and quite frankly was hoping for some much better news.

I knew what he said would be coming eventually, just wasn't expecting it now. Isn't that the way it usually goes? Later seems better than now, but God doesn't work off of the time of man and His later is now, and His now is later, because He lives in one big eternal now. I'm thankful for that. I get WAY to caught up in "time", anyway.....

When I got there and got back to my room they came in to get me for x-rays. Then the wait was on. No problem though, had my trusty book and my thoughts, oh yeah and my nerves apparently. I was fine until I knew the doc would be in soon. Then I got nervous, so I talked to Abba Father and He calmed me right down. All was well.

Then Doc Roeder came in and shook my hand and was so kind. It had been approx 3 years since I had had x-rays on my left knee and since that is the one with the knot on the side and causing the issues with my right knee again (the one I had the PFA on) that is the one he focused his time on. That and the fact that he won't even touch that right knee. That is in the hands of the Mayo docs, since they are the ones that did the PFA back in '08. Another day...another story for that =)

Well, he put my x-rays up on the screen and just kind of shook his head and started pointing out areas of extreme arthritis. He said that I now have bone spurring on the outside part and you could see NO space at all over there. Well that's not good. And then he said that I have significant spurring and arthritis under and around my knee cap, and that is really not good, being how that is what caused me to have to have the PFA in my other knee a year and a half I kind of knew what was coming.....kind of.

You see, I had fully intended to get at least a Cortisone shot in there again to help things a long for a little while, but he said that there was really nothing he could do. Well now, we have been down that road too with my right knee, and that is when he sent me to Mayo. But this time, he said that the only thing that can really be done is a total knee replacement. Good news? He will do that here without me having to travel to Mayo. Bad news? The kind that he wants me to have because I am so young (relatively speaking to having a knee replacement =) they won't let him do at the hospital where my insurance covers. So we have to see if my insurance will cover it at another local hospital.

I'm just not sure what to do at this point. I know what my options are: total knee replacement vs. big ole ginormous knot on the side of my knee and pain and blech.....

Yesterday was a really bad knee day. Today I woke up and at least for the first few minutes it was better. I can already tell the swelling has started. Double blech.....

So instead of asking your advice on what you would do, I will say this:


Whatever He decides, I will do. If that is a great big surgery, then let's get this ball going. If it is waiting, then I will wait, packed in ice bags =) If it is miraculous healing.....yay!!!!! Whatever it is, I will do it, I will go....I will call on the Father and leave it there. He knows.....He has ALL the answers......I am merely His vessel........and right now am so understanding the seeing through the glass dimly verse........on so many levels. But none-the-less:


Have a Beautiful day ~~

Hebrews 12:1

"Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us."

Love you ~~


  1. Coming along side you in prayer sweet friend!

  2. Oh precious sister, indeed GOD IS GOOD ALL THE TIME!! I'm praying for you and so sorry you have to endure this but I know that GOD has a plan even in this. May His plan be revealed. May His strength and healing touch be upon you. May you continue to praise Him and stand firm in your faith of Christ.

    I love you and HE LOVES YOU EVEN MORE!

  3. I have only just"met"you a couple of days ago but because of our shared great love of our FAITHFUL Lord, I already feel I have a new little sister.I will pray for you.Denise

  4. Love your attitude and am saying a prayer for whichever plan God might have. Chronic pain and suffering is such a "thorny" thorn in the flesh to have...although I know all thorns in the flesh are bad....chronic pain just sucks the life out of you sometimes....especially when it is in a flare-up season like you are in now. But you are right--God is good all the time. I am still mad at that knee a little bit, though!!! :)
    Hoping you get a "good knee day" soon!!! Thanks for always being so encouraging and pointing everyone to our faithful Savior!

  5. Dawn I am so sorry to read about your knee problems. I knew you had them, but I didn't realize the extent of how bad it was for you. I am sorry.
    I read a very nice quote today, I don't know who the author is...
    The will of God will never take you where the Grace of God will not protect you.
    I hope that helps.

  6. Praying for you and the situation with your knee. I see this news as an answer to prayer and that God is at work. Keep us posted!