Why?...you might ask...
Well, this would be why!!!
Yep the knee. This is the torture chamber turnbuckle brace I have written about, in action. This week I haven't been in it because the knee is trying to take an ugly turn.ugly. And I don't like it. Nope.I.don't.like.it.one.bit.and.I.am.officially.protesting.
Let me back up a minute. Remember last week when I was back to riding my bike and feeling so good about the knee? Yeah, it didn't last. It seems that whenever I do ANYTHING the knee swells and becomes a monster, well when the tendon popped last week it has not been doing well.bummer.
For the most part I just don't let this get to me, but this time it is hard. Pain is hard. Chronic pain is the pits. Pain with every step makes me mad.
Last night I got into bed and told my hubs: "Honey, I think I've lost my mojo!!" To which he replied: "I'm sorry." Yes, he knows, he is living through it with me. It is not the worst thing in the world and certainly not the worst thing that has ever happened to me, but it is not pleasant and I am feeling like I've forgot how to fly. Remember this post? Hubs stopped calling me Petrii because he said I knew how to fly now. Well, I still know how I'm just finding it more difficult to get the wings (wing) to work. It's frustrating. I wanted to just go back to bed and pull the covers over my head like I've done the past several days, but I stayed up today and did my study in the early hours, like I so enjoy.
This morning my study fell to the Rich Young Ruler and the author of the study said this:
"Keep in mind that this is an actual encounter, not a parable. Although the ruler possessed much of what earth had to offer, he was wise enough to know this life isn't all there is. How gracious is our God to create us with a Spirit that somehow knows life must be more. That "knowing" was meant to compel a search for God who promises to make Himself "findable." "
How awesome, THIS IS NOT ALL THERE IS!!! Even though I may feel pain right now, and feel like maybe my wings (wing) has been clipped so to speak, Christ is the Author and Finisher of my faith, and finish I will, strong. So in these seemingly tired, weary, earthly moments, I know that Christ is indeed the Author and Perfecter of my faith and my life. So when the going gets tough this bird gets to flying!!! =)
Love and hugs to you on this Beautiful Wednesday,
Petrii ~~ 
Bless your heart... you've had such a road with your knee...
ReplyDeleteBut you ALWAYS find God speaking through it... so amazing!
I love you said I lost my mojo & your husband is just calm & says I'm sorry... that's so sweet...simple words of knowing he cares
Dawn,
ReplyDeletePerhaps this is God's way of asking you to slow down a bit and find other things to do right now, spending more time with family, reading the Bible, studying, and writing your beautiful blog.
Your wings may be clipped right now, but in God's timing, they will be bigger than ever before!
Love and Hugs ~ Kat
goodness! we'll keep you in our prayers!!
ReplyDeletei wish you the best of luck with your recovery and you'll have to keep us updated!
love your new back ground! very cute!
Friend! You just lived out on your blog what the Lord has been telling me to do the past few days. I keep hearing - just stay in MY WORD. It is in His Word that we will find rest, strength, wisdom, love, all that we need. He will provide it all to us but we need to seek Him out. Thank you for sharing your sweet journey on your blog. I am always inspired by you and how you live out your faith. Blessings and more blessings, Hope
ReplyDeleteA verse that God keeps reverberating over and over in my mind regarding my situation is Proverbs 19:21. Many are the plans in a man's heart, but it is the Lord's purpose that prevails.
ReplyDeleteGod is using this time to chip away at me and make me look more like Him. I pray that He will help you see His purpose.
Blessings ~ Lisa
Chronic pain is such a powerful adversary....not more powerful than OUR AWESOME GOD, though. I am lifting you and that knee up to Him. I am so sorry, friend. Keep hanging in there...He is going to complete this good work He began in you and in all this!
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry you are having such a hard time with your knee. I am praying for you and hoping you get some relief soon. Thanks for posting about what God is showing you through it all - we can always count on you for that ;)
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry about your knee and your struggle, Dawn. I'm always amazed though, at how you just lean on HIM and get your focus back and find the courage and the strength to keep on fighting! Keep your chin up and hang in there, friend.
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