Monday, September 13, 2010

All that I was created to be....

The more time I spend in God's Word and prayer, the more I realize that I am not my own. That is a beautiful thing.

You see, it is easy sometimes to think I am making my own decisions and doing what I feel is best, but in realty, I am living out the life that God has given me, and as such, the more time I spend in His Presence then the more I know His will and can live so much closer to what He created me to be.

Now we know this as Christians. We hear it all the time, but have you experienced it? Do you set time aside daily to be in His Word and in Him in prayer, and beyond that are you talking to Him throughout your day? Now let me just state, that I struggle with this too. It seems that some days I do splendidly and others I fail miserably, yes I, and you, are works in progress.

I mention this because of the situation I am currently in with my knee. On Friday, I asked your advice. Now this is just not something I am accustomed to doing, in fact, if you know me well then you know that generally I only ask advice from others if I am at the end of my rope with something. And that is how I've felt about my knees in the last week or so. I have felt like they are crippling me, and I don't like that feeling much. I want to run. I want to soar. I want to bike and hike and workout with my husband. I want.....I want. But what does God want?

That is where study and prayer really comes into focus for me. Yesterday in church I went up for prayer, and yet again was prayed over by a couple who prayed exactly what I needed, straight from the heart of God. I was reminded again that it just isn't about me, it is about Him. He has the plan, I merely am living it out, and I want to live it out to the best of my ability.

As I iced both knees last night in my recliner (freezing =) I told my husband that I knew that if I wasn't healed yet, that God had His reasons. I don't know what those are, but it is not my time table we are working with, but His. I know this: if I am never healed of these knee problems in this life, I serve a mighty God who will take and use it for His good. And I can simply ask for nothing else.

So my friends, I press on. God prompted me to get my memory verses out from 2009 and start looking at them and start memorizing Scripture again. I came to the verses that seemed to be my theme verses for that period and still are today.

Romans 12:9-13

"9 Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil, cling to what is good.
10 Be devoted to one another in brotherly love. Honor one another above yourselves.
11 Never be lacking in zeal, but keep your spiritual fervor serving the Lord.
12 Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer.
13 Share with God's people who are in need practice hospitality."

Dear ones, love simply must be sincere. He has spoke to me so much through this one sentence over the last few days. When I start saying this verse, just starting there makes my heart sing!!! I love that love doesn't work unless it is sincere. He is teaching me more and more about what sincere love looks like. And that is changing my whole perspective on a lot of levels, including the physical issues that I'm dealing with right now.

When I am sincerely loving those around me, it doesn't matter if I am walking perfectly, walking with a limp, have to use my crutches or if I was not able to walk at all. If I am loving with a sincere heart then that is what others see; Christ in me, the hope of Glory, and not the falleness of my nature.

So yes, I press on. Thanks to everyone who commented on Friday. I needed a lift. And that is just what I got. By-the-way I will be calling my doctor here today. I don't feel in any way that it is not having faith. God gave me doc's wisdom well beyond what I have, so it will serve me well to see what they think might be going on and maybe get some relief from the pain.

Love you all so ~~ thank you again for your comments and prayers ~~

Isaiah 61:10
"I delight greatly in the LORD; my soul rejoices in my God. For He has clothed me with garments of salvation and arrayed me in a robe of righteousness, as a bridegroom adorns his head like a priest, and as a bride adorns herself with her jewels."

Have a Beautiful day,


  1. You cant go wrong with any decision you have made in the Lord... when He speaks to you through Scripture & you pray about it, you're on the right path...

    I'll continue praying with you friend for that healing though that we know our Great Physician has in store!

  2. Such a sweet testimony my friend. Thank you for sharing your heart today. Your words have encouraged me today. Hugs, Hope

  3. Great post, Dawn. I know you are struggling, but you never lack faith. You have so much to share for others who suffer and are an inspiration with your attitude!